on Thursday, May 15, 2014
The normal way I've experienced with friendships that somehow just ended were subtle and painless. Time was a huge factor... with time you communicate less, you don't see each other as often then the friendship basically ends.

But then there's those that just ended abruptly. Or they NEED to end and you just don't know how to do it so you try to let it fizzle out but it doesn't. You then find yourself "faking it" most of the time so you seem slightly interested by still distant. Boy was that just the dumbest thing I have ever done in my life.

I let the annoyances get to me bit by bit. Before I knew it, every time this person contacted me I cringed. But then I still felt obligated to respond with something. Some "thing" was compelling me to just keep going with this torture of misleading this guy to keep thinking we're friends.

Needless to say, the torture finally ended. I had enough and I couldn't hold it any long. I was snappy, brutally honest and upfront with everything I was feeling. I let this poor guy have it. And thus, our friendship finally ended.

All these months wasted, trying to make something work but knew it was doomed from the start. Though it wasn't a major event in my life it still affected me somehow. I've never done this before to a person I used to like... loved.

on Tuesday, May 13, 2014
A frequent theme that I despise has been occurring to me with a "friend" of mine but mostly happening to some guys I meet (from online/apps or social gatherings) and we're at the beginning phases of getting to know each other. If I receive a text and I don't respond that exact second after you sent it, it simply means I just haven't gotten to your message. 

It doesn't mean I'm bored with you, not interested or think you're ugly. Its happened once with a friend that I didn't respond to a question until maybe an hour later and assumed I flaked. No, *dumbass* I was driving, you assumed incorrectly and jumped to conclusions. 

Some of the boys that I meet and are potential "dates" seem to be very impatient in getting responses. Yes, I see I have a few text messages on my phone... I'm busy, I'll get to it when I can. But as soon as I see what the initial question was, they have already made an entire conversation for themselves and assumed my silence meant...
  • A) I am not attracted to you anymore
  • B) I am uninterested because I didn't respond immediately
  • C) I'm bored and purposefully not responding to make you angry 

CALM DOWN YOU IMPATIENT BITCHES!! I don't live off my phone and text messages 24/7... I have a life, work, school and I prioritize my shit! 

One good thing has come out of this though, I've learned to take this as a major red flag and terminate the conversation and cut out whatever itty bitty relationship that was growing. As for the friend that keeps doing this, I've already told him to stop being such an impatient/needy person with me.... first warning and hopefully the last.
on Sunday, May 11, 2014
Need to auto-redirect to a far far faaaaaar away place that I should never read or hear from ever again!! 
My ex, drunk (obviously) decides to text me last night a bunch of empty, full of shit, love texts that just makes me laugh to no end. I don't respond to them but man does it just makes me feel SO MUCH better that I ended things. However, the thought of him thinking about me just sets me off and I don't know why. It wasn't until he sent this
"You belong to me.. and no one else"
is when I just couldn't ignore him any longer and HAD to intervine. I know now that it might not have been a good idea but it felt so good being very horribly honest in my replies. Oh and at the same time I get handful of drunken texts from his best friend that he was with at the time. 
You know what's worse than getting drunk texts from you ex at 2am in the morning? Drunk texts from his BFF! Drunk texts from 2 fucking people at the same time is just the worst!!
I end this rant by saying that he drove home... DRUNK! Again... it's only a matter of time before something horrible happens to him or someone else because of his immaturity and blatant stupidity.